I need help,im feeling so depressed ?

Im 15 and a high scol sophmore,I hate my mom,she embarasses me everywhere,my daddy died when I wuz lil,my mom curses me infront of my friends,I can't even have a boyfriend,I really like this guy but I can't do anythin bout my feelings,I love swimmin,somehow I joined da team now she says I can't continue,today we had a fight and I'm thinkin of running away she even said she regrets havin my brother and I.what do I do? I don't wanna live with her anymore